CARRY ME

I have some thoughts that have been stirring around in my head. The other day Debbie asked me to write something she might be able to use on the back of her church bulleton, I said it may take awhile. When we went to Redberry Bible Camp, we had a morning service, during the worship I held Josiah, hes a little too big to be comfortable in my arms. I tried to set him down at least once, he wanted right back up, he told me "higher." It was in those moments that the LORD began to speak, and every morning that I go out and walk that is my hour with God. HE CARRIED THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD UPON HIS SHOULDERS I KNOW MY SISTER THAT HE CARRY YOU COME UNTO ME AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST I CAST MY CARES ALL MY CARES DOWN AT YOUR FEET ANY TIME I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO I WILL CAST MY DOWN TO TO YOU.

GOD IS TEACHING ME THAT HE LOVES TO CARRY ME
EVEN IF I AM REALLY HEAVY WITH BURDENS
MY BOY IS FIGHTING AT SCHOOL ALMOST EVERYDAY,
I FEEL TERRIBLE,
HOW CAN I HELP HIM
GOD SAYS CAST YOUR CARES UPON ME,
I WILL GIVE YOU REST
OTHER THINGS HAVE HAPPENED
THAT ARE UNPEACEFUL
GOD SAYS HE IS GOING TO CARRY ME
CARRY ME : SO THAT I AM UPCLOSE TO YOUR HEART.
I WANT TO HEAR YOUR HEART BEATING
HOW CAN I CARE WHEN I AM HURTING SO MUCH
CAST YOUR CARES ON ME
I WILL GIVE YOU REST
WHEN I HOLD GODS HAND I DON'T FEEL CLOSE ENOUGH
THAT IS WHY I NEED GOD TO HOLD ME CLOSE TO HIS HEART
DRAW NEAR TO ME AND I WILL DRAW NEAR TO YOU.

JOSIAH IS REALLY HEAVY
BUT I LOVE HIM
SO I HELD HIM HIGHER
HOW MUCH MORE DOES THE FATHER LOVE US.
HE HOLDS US NOT JUST FOR A LITTLE WHILE
BUT UNTIL WE ARE READY
TO WALK BESIDE HIM
ALTHOUGH HE ALWAYS WANTS US
TO FIND HIS HEART AND HE WAITS FOR US TO REACH UP
AND CALL TO HIM "HIGHER"

Summer Update

I have been blessed this summer. It wasn't too crazy, like it was last year. The kids and I did some homeschooling, some camps and daily vacation Bible School. Then there was our family vacation a camping and a trip to my parents.

I believe that going for walks gave me energy and peace of mind. When I planned things for them they were content. When they were bored they wanted lunch as early as 9 and I would try to hold them off till 11 or 11:30. My one prayer all summer is that the Lord would bring us home safly all of us, Josiah was quite scarey think vechical should stop automatically for him.

I am too tired to write adequatly it looks like we will have an exciting school year. Caleb in afternoon kindergarten, Josiah in grade 2 and Sharona in grade 5. I am determined to loose weight and join tops. I am also excited about Life group, and what Gods going to do for us as a couple.

Mother Daughter Bond

Saturday we went to the Parables store, then I found a book that could help me, teach my daughter about her body. The book was The Body, it is part of the Lily series written by Nacy Rue. Talking about this was actually a joy, it wasn't scary or weird. When I said the word period, she laughs. She said she would get used of it and its not that bad right mom, as long as she was prepared with her supplies. Stephen reminded me later that she always wanted to grow up, from even before one, crawling wasn't good, and she was always quick to learn the next things. The benifits of having to go through all of this, is that we are the blessed ones that get to cradle the baby in our womb for 9 months, this is for not for many years, of course, but her body will be in preparation soon. About the word sex, she only know that we are either female or male. I am not ready to talk about this for a long time. Then again I need to to be the first as it creates a positive image, before the negative images are talked about at school or with friends. The innocent mind is easier to teach then one that is polluted by the worlds thinking. Caleb's alphebet that he typed himself. abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

Growing Up

Now my daughter is only 9 and a half, we have been noticing latly that she is growing up. I think she is starting the early stages of puberty. Today we noticed a zit on her nose, and we do know she is starting to grow bumps for a few months now. I was never taught anything about my body growing up and I was a scared girl with not many friends I did some reading in teen magazines to find out things about my period and stuff. I want my daughter to feel beautiful but I don't know how to teach beauty when I don't even feel beautiful myself. When should I start teaching her period and what other things do I need to teach her? I have read that it is about 2 years after a girl starts developing that she gets her period. In some ways, this is good, but it still sounds too early. What if I still want her to be my little girl?

Heavenly thoughts

If I could only imagine what I would look like in heaven............I would feel beautiful. In heaven I would dressed up all pure even more beautiful then our earthly brides. I would be shining and glowing and I will be bright as the morning star. All my tears will be wiped away even the happy tears, will turn to Joy. I will be dancing with my father I will see my family all worshiping beside me. We will no longer be bored or worried about tomorrow. The only thing we will want to do is worship and party with our Jesus Christ.

If I can only imagine what heaven would be like for one moment in everyday, the cares of this world will really fade and I will become thankful for what is to come. He is coming back for me, very soon.

Made to Last Forever

Our time on earth prepares us for eternity. Heaven we will be with God and have unbroken fellowship with him. We think it is so unfair when someone dies of an accident or illness or anything we some how believe that people should live forever: God planted that seed within us. If our focus in heaven is going to be all about God then we should learn to focus worship and love him more now.

Point to ponder: There is more to life then just the here and now.

Verse to remember: This world is fading away, along with everything it craves. But if you do the will of God you will live forever. 1John2:17

Question to consider: Since I was made to last forever, what is one thing I should stop doing and one thing I should start doing today?

Well I might as well of use last night as my example: I was tired and wanted love and attention and no more kids climbing all over mom. So I told Stephen I wanted to go where the queens go. Sharona was trying to figure out where could this be, has she been there before? Stephen would say something about black and white cows. We got close and Caleb says the ice cream place, Sharona say Dairy Queen. I wasn't craving food I was wanting to be loved. Then we came home and I was too tired to watch Jurastic Park. I went to bed.

I need to stop fill up my body when I need some love I need to go to God rather then my husband, he can only do so much. God's love is much greater and even more satisfying. I need to start running to God more frequently and stay in his arms of love daily.

What Drives You?

Many people are driven by guilt
Many people are driven by resentment and anger
Many people are driven by fear
Many people are driven by materialism
Many people are driven by the need for approval

I believe I am driven by the need for approval I have always stayed close to what ever values and beliefs my parents have. It was really hard to cut the apron strings because my husband would say so little about what he thought and I wanted to have the approval of someone. It was a big thing to move to Saskatoon and be more distant from all they had to say. I was on my own before that but I knew this would be more permanent. Even now when my dad has an opinion I really don't disagree, at least not in the same room. And one time I did speak up and he actually called me stupid for not wanting to watch more videos on why evolution is wrong and creation.


The Benefits of Purpose Driven Living?

Knowing your purpose gives meaning to your life

Knowing your purpose simplifies your life

Knowing your purpose focuses your life

Knowing your purpose motivates your life

Knowing your purpose prepares you for eternity


Point to ponder: Living on purpose is the path to peace
Verse to remember: You Lord give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you Isaiah 26:3

Question to consider: What would my family and friends say is the driving force of my life? What do I want it to be?

I believe that people would see my children as the thing that drives me: I do things for my children with my children and I am striving to be better mom. My interest in health and nursing drives me to study and research in this area. My belief in God keeps me true to his word.

I want to be driven by passion and compassion for others: I want to love like God loves them. I want to be driven by worship that I am so in love with God that he can speak loud and clear.